when it's over

wow. and just like that the year is over. this last month or so has been one heck of a ride. there were definately times in the year when i never thought it would end. =P

-i will enter His gates with thanksgiving in my heart, i will enter His courts with praise-

there's definately been so much to be thankful for this past year. especially during the last 2 weeks of school. it's been so crazy. 6 modular exams in 3 days, a weekend to study/recuperate then 6 finals in a wk. oof. people left n right were showing signs of instability =P one thing that was funny(if that's the right word) was that sooo many people mentioned that they were going to church to pray, etc. reminds me of that chinese saying, ping shi bu shao xiao, ling shi bao fuo jiao. it was a reminder.. how different religion is here.

i felt so burnt out in that week before the round of exams. doubt plagued me as i surveryed the material i was supposed to cover. but thruout, eileen n i continued our bible study and meeting up and yeah. i'm so grateful i've got someone who i can share with and to keep me accountable =)

some of us met up for dinner before everyone leaves for the summer. it was good. the dinner was a dusky rose, reminiscing with a tint of a sigh. i'm looking forward to a good rest this summer then it's year 2 of med! still a long ways more to go but i know that God will see us thru this.

31x2

my youngest cousin is so adorable. he's the right huggable size and he's at
that age where they say the funniest things. [he called up the other day to
ask how to remove a brain from a cadaver. i have no idea why that came up...
but it did. i have the strangest feeling he wanted to try it on a frog]

we're into our 3rd last module! yay! it's getting a bit hard to continue hitting
the books night after night. on the bright side.. 62 days til summer!
hopefully there'll be a trip to somewhere with sun and pretty coral/marine life.
i want my vacation already!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA! YOU'RE TWENTEEN!
i'd treat you to yummylicious ice-cream buut.. we aren't even in the same land mass.
my brother's sailing... sailing... for 40days and 40nights possibly.
i want to be on the ocean too. floating in a sphere of bluefadetogreen
and seeing the stars set against the perfect shade of dark blue.

:)

truffles

i love truffles! they are absolutely yummy! my aunt had a visitor from belgium and she brought stuff and made us truffles! totally addicting. and she brought fresh (ok. so maybe they're dried...) walnuts from her garden. so you can just crack em open, put em on top of a truffle and pop em into your mouth. i think i've gained weight over this weekend. ooh. walnuts can be kinda pretty. [i used to think they looked like little brains]

we went to antipolo today. it was a post new-year+birthday celebration. gosh. my lola cooked SO MUCH food. it's nice to get out of the city though. i sat on a bench outside looking at the green view, though to my left i could see metro manila. i just spent some time thinking and praying. it's been awhile since i've had an undistracted, quiet time and it was refreshing. i think i'm quite ready to start the new week (and module) with the right focus and perspective.

a flash of light

i have fireworks in my brain. one after another they explode in my mind. i'm reeling from the sensory overload. this past week has been... 'woah'-inducing. so how now brown cow? i honestly don't know...

so christmas has come and gone. i must say that the silver wedding anniversary was quite cool =) i wonder if i'll ever hit that mark. i must say that my parents have indeed set a very good example and i'll always grateful to them and for that. the christmas break wasn't much of a rest thought. 15 people all crammed into one apartment!


i guess pink is still the default wedding related colour =P

fast-forward >>

2 weeks of break... 2 weeks of school = 1 roller-coaster ride.

i think my language skills are deteriorating. i'm using math to describe incidents..! eek.

the doulos reached manila on the fourth of january! it's been a pretty exciting week. visited the ship so many times.. brought friends and family. it certainly brings back memories. coincidentally.. one of the other singaporean STEPers sent an email to us. it's been a year since we've left the ship. wow.





i love fireworks =) it's my chemical romance. heh. the crowd around oohing and aahing at the splashes of light on the dark canvas. you can just stand there.. watch... and forget for while.
they held the pyro-olympics in philippines over the past coupla weekends. yet somehow, such an extravagent display of pyro-technics only served to light up the disparity between the haves and have-nots. but looking at such a pretty palatte of colors, i know deep down that i hope they never stop putting up such displays.
i want to be like them.. especially those that explode white-purple and leave a trail of faery dust.

because

thank you

Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

Here I am with all I am
Raise my hands to worship You
I wanna say thank you, oh thank you
For everything, for who You are
You cover me, You touch my heart
I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me
Didn't have any hope
You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay
But instead You took my place
My Jesus, words cannot explain
Even though I don't deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy

I wanna say thank you for the sun
I wanna say thank you for the rain
Everything You do is beautiful
I'm so grateful for Your love

*the katinas




there seems to be a theme this week.

friday: celebrated thanksgiving with the fil-ams the day the typhoon hit. typhoon Reming changed its course and didn't hit metro manila directly so we were still able to have that dinner.

sunday: the sermon was basically asking us if we were taking things for granted.

monday: physio exam at 8am. woke up at 7.50am. said a prayer for a taxi. rushed out of the house and an empty cab rolled by and i managed to flag it down. that has *never* happened in all the times i've woken up late. it's near impossible to get a cab after 7.30am around my place. Thank God for daily miracles!

today: anatomy practical today. was feeling terribly unprepared last night. thankfully the practical was ok. heh. had a few inspired answers =P

on hold

What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world
I would meet you,
Would you meet me?

On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah whatever it takes
I would meet you
would you meet me?

I'm glad to say that we met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side

So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star

What if we could
Where would we go?
If it felt right
Would you want me to know?
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

It's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise
Can't somehow exist
I would meet you
Would you meet me?

I'm glad to say that we met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side

So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star

A simple star in my eyes
In my eyes

what if we could
blue october

*POOF*

there's been a whole lot of drama going on in class. a lot of divides. as if studying isn't stressful enought but you throw in friction and viciousness and it definately gives everyone a headache. today was definately the last straw. a really vicious, anonymous email was sent out to the class. it basically insulted everyone, though the bulk of it was directed at the foreigners, and had a whole lotta bad language thrown in.

when i read that email, the flash of outrage and anger was quickly followed by a wave of sadness. i really felt like crying. the only thing that was stopping me was the fact that i was in class. i just wanted to go home.

however, with the new change in the class officers and a new semester beginning, i pray that as a section we can move past this. i'm sure we can. =)